really?

Do you ever have those moments where you're expecting something to be happy, positive, or just a down right surprise? And with those moments do they ever just completely flip upside down and become what seems like the worst result that could happen in that situation?

I have.

It just really kills me that whenever I assume anything these days, it always turns to complete shit. Really life? Come ON. I just want a break. I've had so many negative outcomes lately. Outcomes to things that I've truly wanted. I don't think I've ever felt so much want in my LIFE.

Someone wise told me to take things day by day and that's all we can do... but I can't necessarily follow that advice because I'm living on my own and I need money plans! I can't just rely on each day to figure out how I'm going to survive in LA. I can't rely on each day to figure out how to get an agent back into my dance career. I just can't, I'm always thinking ahead.

It's been a sincerely tough couple months for me and I'm actually a great actress so I seem fucking fabulous but on the inside I'm really upset about things but I choose to not let them get me down. I will get through all of this. I will make sure I'm working twice as hard to do what I want to accomplish. I want to be in a dance company, I want to be on a dance TV show, I want to be in a relationship. It will happen. It'll just take some time, some more disappointments, and some tear fests to get me where I want to go...

I just hope it won't take too long.

In the spirit of the unfortunate VALENTINE'S DAY.

In the spirit of Valentine's Day I've decided to post this quote. Read it, think about it, do what you will, but honestly, if every man were to think like this and realize it there would be less angry bitches being horrible bitter angry bitches on Valentine's Day. 


Just a hint boys.